In Searching for a Rose Garden: challenging psychiatry, fostering mad studies, Chapter 10 is called “Thinking (differently) about suicide”. Written by David Webb, it concerns his enquiry into suicide after he stopped being actively suicidal:
“… As I continued to wade through the literature, I realised that the actual suicidal person was remarkably absent from all this expert knowledge. It was as though these experts were looking at people like me through the wrong end of their telescope so that we were little more than almost invisible dots on the distant horizon.
The suicidal urge to die only passed for me when I finally attended to the spiritual crisis that lay at its heart, so I was looking in the literature of suicidology for any discussion of spirituality. I guess I was not too surprised to find spirituality virtually prohibited and banned from the academic discipline that claims to be the scientific study of suicide. But I was surprised – indeed stunned and appalled – to see the first person voice of suicidal people was almost totally absent …
My investigations led me to conclude that are several reasons why the first person voice of suicidal people is largely absent from suicidology. None of them are good …”
You can read more within Chapter 10 of the book cited above.
And/or you can read more in David Webb’s book Thinking About Suicide, which is subtitled “Contemplating and comprehending the urge to die”.